He didn’t try to kiss me.  He didn’t grab my boobs.  He didn’t rip my clothes off, or even undress himself.  Instead, Jack asked me to sit on the edge of the desk and hike my skirt up and spread my legs. He then rolled the desk’s over-sized matching chair toward me and, like an old frayed teddy bear, plopped down in it. His face betrayed a bashful grin as he rolled the chair closer and closer.

I really had no idea what would happen next. But I was no longer afraid, just really curious. So far, at least, if I had to describe him, it would be, as I already mentioned, as an old teddy bear. Gentle but not necessarily cuddly (he was too ugly for that!). And what he was now doing — rolling the chair every closer so that his face was pressed closer and closer to my panty-less crotch — sparked some involuntary whimsy from my lips:

“I feel like my body is a computer and you’re about to start typing on the keyboard!” I laughed.  And he did, too — a hoarse, breathy laugh that tickled my scrotum (yes, his face was that close!).

He nuzzled his face ever tighter against my male genitals, already pressed tight against the flesh-colored pantyhose that he had instructed me to wear. Why he had been so insistent that I wear no panties, I now understood.

If he was expecting me to get hard…well, he would have been within his rights to want a refund. I glanced down and tried to see if he was getting hard — that was all that counted, right? — and I thought/hoped I detected a growing bulge in his pants. Maybe just wishful thinking?

I wanted and needed for Jack to be happy…so that Marvin would be happy…so that I wouldn’t be fired. Most of all, I wanted this moment to be over with, in a satisfactory manner, so that I could feel like I’d actually earned the money. Yes, I wanted to make sure Jack got his satisfaction. Pride in my new identity was at stake.

Against the nylon of my hose, his rough thumb began to make circular motions around the head of my still flaccid penis.  He did it so much and so hard, I was beginning to feel painfully sore and inflamed at the head of my urethra.  I had to change the subject of his attention.

“Let me suck your cock,” I suddenly said.

“With Marvin’s other girls, I always suck their cocks.”  He seemed puzzled.

“Well, give me a chance,” I begged. “You might be surprised. You might really like it. I give really good head.”

At first around my waist, gradually sliding down to my butt, Jack’s hand guided me through what seemed like countless doors and long corridors.  The click of my heels and the sway of my hips displayed a confidence I had not yet earned.  Like a virgin acting like a sexpot, down deep I knew I was a fraud, a fake, just a wanabee whore.  It wouldn’t take much to reignite the worries and fears I had felt initially when Jack’s creepy telephone voice was booking our date.

So when Jack ushered me, the nervous Nellie, into the inner sanctum of his executive suite and locked the door behind us, one of my heels snagged the edge of an Oriental carpet. I would have fallen had Jack not steadied me.  All the lady-like poise I had spent months, even years, cultivating quickly melted into embarrassment…and, yes, fear.

“Maybe I should call Marvin…” I stammered and reached into my purse for the cellphone. “… And tell him I’m here.”

“No need to do that, Joyce.”  He handed me an unsealed envelope.  “Put this in your purse instead.”  My fingers opened the envelope and flipped through the bills — four $100’s and one $50.  Just as Marvin — the escort service owner and so, yes, my pimp —  had said it would work!  My estrogen-patch-addled bimbo brain didn’t even have to remember to ask for the money!

What exactly was Jack buying for $450?  I wasn’t yet sure.  That was my appointment rate set by Marvin.  For that amount, the client could have up to one and one-half hours of my precious time.  If the client wanted additional time, it would be at the $300 hourly rate.  Overnight rates could be negotiated.

Everything had to be prepaid, either by credit card over the phone with Marvin or by handing cash directly to me.  If the latter, I would deposit Marvin’s one-third directly into his bank account the next morning at a bank branch most convenient to me.

I’ll tell you more about Marvin later, but at that particular moment I was in awe.  He had thought of everything — as slyly clever as any Wall Street hedge fund manager.  By paying upfront, the client could never be undercover police because that would be entrapment.  And by coordinating all the logistics of the appointment through Marvin’s office, I was reasonably safe: if I didn’t report in by phone in exactly one and one-half hours, Marvin would send one of his assistants looking for me.

Marvin had the address.  He had the client’s phone number, maybe even credit card number.  Marvin knew everything.  My fate was in his hands.  Suddenly I had a glimpse of the legendary power of a pimp:  Marvin had become my God-like protector.

Of course, Marvin at this very moment could not prevent Jack from raping me, killing me, then cutting me up into tiny pieces.  But if Jack was rational, he knew he would never get away with it….right?